Hello my beautiful best friends! Christmas has come and gone, and I hope you guys are all having a great winter break! It’s been a long journey to get to where I am this Christmas break, but this past semester of college has been one of the hardest but also most gratifying times of my life, and I’m thankful for it all. On one hand, I had to battle with, what at times, felt like an unbearable amount of anxiety. It felt like I was drowning and there was nothing I could do about it but try to distract myself, which usually didn’t work. It’s like you’re trying to run away from your own mind, which for those of you who have experienced this, know it’s an impossible thing to do.[Sidenote: If you guys want to read a book about feeling like your body and mind is working against you, but finding a way to overcome it, Turtles All the Way Down by John Green does an excellent job at illustrating this realness of something like this. Okay, back to the life update.]
But as the months flew by, I also came to realize that getting out of my comfort zone and moving to a place where I knew no one and was about to try to major in an incredibly difficult degree when I didn’t even know (and still don’t really) what I wanted to with my life, was something that pushed me. And while I’m still trying to find a perfect balance of this crazy life, I think the challenges I had to overcome made me a little more confident in myself and what I’m capable of. My anxiety has gone down a ton because I know I’m giving all I can.
Another thing that really helped me make some genuine friends was letting people see who the real me is. Losing your normal and comfortable support group back home is something everyone is going through, and finding a good group of people who I felt like I can be myself around honestly makes everything so much better.
As you guys may have noticed in the title, I also have moved dorms. My roommate for first semester decided she belonged somewhere else, and is going to South Africa to teach children English. I’m so happy for her and wish her the best! I had a mutual friend whose roommate was also leaving Creighton, and who was in a dorm building where I knew more people anyway, so I decided to move in with her. I think it’s going to be so fun and such a great new experience (communal bathrooms and all–my first dorm building was suite style, aka private bathrooms, haha). We both love the soundtrack for the movie The Greatest Showman, so needless to say I’m already excited!
Speaking of new experiences, sorority recruitment is coming up! I know, I know, didn’t that happen in, like, August? Creighton does spring recruitment so the freshman have more time to settle into college-life before delving into the chaos of Greek life as well. I’m so excited to be going through this with my friends, and I’m even more excited to meet even more people!
Read, listen, & watching favorites:
[If you want another great book on race issues, read Black Like Me by John Howard Griffin.]
LISTEN: Straightjacket – Quinn XCII
WATCH: The Greatest Showman